DON’T! PLEASE DON’T!!
Let me help you!!
Thinking of suicide? I did.
I remember I was probably about twelve. If you know about me, I grew up in a godless home with an invalid father who became terribly disabled mentally and physically when I was six or seven. It was more like having a mentally and physically disabled brother… I became to believe I felt as though I had no father… As I grew somewhat older, I had a mother I was terrified of. That’s enough of that.
Selah.
Needless to say I’m still here! Praise God! And I’m now (2023) sixty-seven!! Still married (since 1979.) My family situation is not all it should be: however, my husband and I doing great! Enough said there.
Primarily, God loves me! I am a child of God! First and foremost: I listen to Him! Amen and amen!
Selah.
I don’t want to impress you with my situations I’ve had and am having: I want you to listen to me about you! I want to help you! You are loved: and you need to cling to that! Amen and amen! I understand pain, rejection, and lack very well. I understand to a high degree why you are considering to end it all…
Selah.
THE FIRST THING I WANT TO TELL you about contemplating suicide is this: it can only get better!
It can only get better!
It can only get better!
Hang on and listen to me, please! You think you are at your lowest and nothing is going to help you: wrong. Wrong, wrong! God is with you and loves you! He is definitely using me to reach you! I love you too! Why else would He direct you to this page over so very many, many articles! He is the real thing; so am I. Hang on!
Next, if you are dying now; waiting for the pills to ‘work’, the blood to drain, the gun to be fired and sink in, the car to end you last drive… cry out to Jesus, the Man who died for us all! It may not be too late. Obviously, you have no trust in Him or you wouldn’t be thinking the way you are. Doing what you are or about to do!
Selah (pause, think, meditate.)
God tells us in the Bible, the book of James, chapter 4, verse 17:
If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.
If you don’t know (or worse, don’t care) suicide is self-murder and is a sin. What you need to think about this:
“Where will I go when I’m dead?”
Friend, it’s not over when you stop breathing, when your blood stops flowing, when your body is rigid and cold; when you can’t blink; when you’re in your grave… It’s not! Don’t take the chance as some would say,
“When you’re dead you’re dead.”
I guarantee you when your body is stiff there are only two places to go: Heaven or Hell. You see, you are a tripart being. You are a person with a spirit, soul, and body. Your spirit leaves your body upon death and goes to its eternal home.
You know what your body is: but do you know what your soul is? Your soul is the part of you that feels pain – or joy. Your soul is your mind, your emotions (which are right now out of whack) and your will. God allows you to choose through your will the lifestyle, thoughts, and yes, your emotions… You choose them. You choose how to deal with them. Or better said, because of your state of mind, how to cope!
Selah.
You choose!
And: you are responsible for your choices.
Selah.
TAKE SOME TIME to reflect on what is beautiful and good.
Think about the people you will hurt when you murder yourself! Is this beautiful? Is this good? Do you have a wife, any children, and elderly mother??? I guarantee you: there are people who love you! Strangers do! The police officer risking his life to save a jumper. The fireman who rushes into the apartment set on fire by a berserk tenant. The first responder screeching his wheels on Minnesota icy roads to get to you in time after that 911 call…
I have tears in my eyes right now for them! For you! Don’t do it!!
Yes, you are loved! I’ve just proven it!
Selah.
Horrors in life come from the opposite of the character and person of God: horrors come from the devil! Do you think he would ever help you?! Horrors also come from other people Satan has enticed to help him destroy you…
Who do you think has planted suicidal thoughts in your mind that you allowed to grow?!
John 10:7-11
Therefore Jesus said again, “Very truly I tell you, I am the gate for the sheep. All who have come before me are thieves and robbers, but the sheep have not listened to them. I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved. They will come in and go out, and find pasture. The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. “I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.
Selah.
LET ME GIVE YOU SOME ENCOURAGEMENT AGAIN right now:
Psalm 116:15
Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his faithful servants.
Again, this is Bible: the book of Psalms in Psalm, chapter 116, verse 15.
God always knew everything about you: and He knew when you would die, and how. He wants you death to be precious; be gathered unto Him!
Selah.
Apostle Paul considered himself the chief sinner. He had been an evil, evil man…
Obviously again, you have chosen not to be God’s faithful servant! You can change that. At the end of this writing I have a prayer for you to become a child of God. Contrary to lies and liars: not every person is a child of God. Like everyone else before them, you have to humble yourself! I was a child of Satan. This is a deep subject: and, totally true! I give you Scriptures for the important truths of this. Be certain of this: babies, children, adults who are not capable to understand the truth of God’s plan will come before His presence if they were to die in this state.
Selah.
Cry out to Jesus!
SCRIPTURAL TRUTHS TO HELP RESCUE YOU:
John 8:42:47
Jesus said to them, “If God were your Father, you would love me, for I have come here from God. I have not come on my own; God sent me. Why is my language not clear to you? Because you are unable to hear what I say. You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. Yet because I tell the truth, you do not believe me! Can any of you prove me guilty of sin? If I am telling the truth, why don’t you believe me? 47 Whoever belongs to God hears what God says. The reason you do not hear is that you do not belong to God.”
2 Samuel 12:18-23
On the seventh day the child died. David’s attendants were afraid to tell him that the child was dead, for they thought, “While the child was still living, he wouldn’t listen to us when we spoke to him. How can we now tell him the child is dead? He may do something desperate.” David noticed that his attendants were whispering among themselves, and he realized the child was dead. “Is the child dead?” he asked. Yes,” they replied, “he is dead.” Then David got up from the ground. After he had washed, put on lotions and changed his clothes, he went into the house of the Lord and worshiped. Then he went to his own house, and at his request they served him food, and he ate. His attendants asked him, “Why are you acting this way? While the child was alive, you fasted and wept, but now that the child is dead, you get up and eat! He answered, “While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept. I thought, ‘Who knows? The Lord may be gracious to me and let the child live.’ But now that he is dead, why should I go on fasting? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me.”
Hebrews 4:12-13
For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
THIS PRAYER WILL TAKE YOU TO HEAVEN if you remain with God, never forsaking Him, never leaving Him to become an apostate!
Dear God,
I surrender to you now, right now. I am done in trying to invent a working lifestyle without you. I humble myself and call out to You. I’m done with lying, with pretending, and explaining away ungodliness…
Romans 1:18-21
The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of people, who suppress the truth by their wickedness, since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse. For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened.
CHOOSE LIFE! CHOOSE CHRIST!
And never turn back!!
God in Heaven,
I come to You in the name of Your only begotten Son, Jesus. I have sinned. I now believe and know that Jesus is fully God, fully Man. He lived a sinless life and took all of my sickness and infirmities in His body. He died on the cross for my sins. I believe and know that He was raised from the dead so I might be saved from Hell and have eternal life in Your Kingdom with you forevermore.
Jesus, I ask you to be my only Lord and Savior. Please forgive me of my sins and wash them away with Your holy blood; never to be remembered again. Please take my sickness or any health issue I have by the stripes You endured for all mankind…
I will now strive to live my life for You to my best ability and with the help of You, Holy Spirit, I strive to seek You, study You and worship You all the days of my life, which are forever, amen!
I denounce Satan and his kingdom now and forevermore!
I also ask to be baptized in You, Holy Spirit, with the evidence of this by praying in other tongues, my heavenly language.
(To receive your heavenly language – take it by faith – just as you receive Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Simply start speaking syllables – do not say anything in your known language/s. It WILL come – just believe. Satan will tell you it is false – never listen to the father of lies. Pray in tongues every day!)
Thank You, God, for forgiving me, cleansing me, healing me in every way, staying with me and praying with me.
In Jesus name, I pray this, amen.
SCRIPTURAL TRUTHS:
Romans 3:21-26
But now apart from the law the righteousness of God has been made known, to which the Law and the Prophets testify. This righteousness is given through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference between Jew and Gentile, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and all are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the shedding of his blood—to be received by faith. He did this to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished—he did it to demonstrate his righteousness at the present time, so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in Jesus.
Philippians 2:12-13
Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.
Isaiah 53:4-5
Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed.
1 Peter 2:24
“He himself bore our sins” in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed.”
Ephesians 2:8-9
For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, lest anyone should boast.
Romans 10:9-10
But what does it say? “The word is near you, in your mouth and in your heart” (that is, the word of faith which we preach): that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
Acts 2:4
And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.
1 Corinthians 14:2
For anyone who speaks in a tongue does not speak to people but to God. Indeed, no one understands them; they utter mysteries by the Spirit.
DO NOT BE DECEIVED! You must continue your relationship as a child of God!
Live this way:
2 Timothy 4:7-8
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day-and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.
Hebrews 3:14
We have come to share in Christ if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first.
Revelation 3:5
He who overcomes will, like them, be dressed in white. I will never blot out his name from the book of life, but will acknowledge his name before my Father and his angels.
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