but who I have always wanted…

 

 

 

 

MY SISTER CINDY DIED UNBORN…
at least, I believe she is my sister; not my brother. Curious? You shouldn’t be. Many babies die in the womb. I am thankful to say here die here rather than murdered (that would a mother’s satanic choice.)

No. Cindy was a child my mother carried in her womb before I was created.
Look here:

 

Psalm 139:13-16
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

 

God has perfect plans for us all. Cindy died unborn; I was born in April, 1956. It isn’t God’s fault nor His perfect will that babies die: it is His permissive will. All the pains and sorrows any of us suffer originated in the Garden when Adam said yes to Satan and no to God. What a dope!

All of my life that I can remember and even up to now I have always wanted a sister: and not just a sister, but I really wanted an older sister who could have (back in the day) taught me about boys, makeup, and other very crucial things… I wanted a big sister who loves me, protects me, guides me.

You know, I’ve always missed having an older sister. I’ve told friends many times: “She would have loved me! I would have made her love me!”

Truly I believe the child who died unborn in our mother’s womb is Cindy, a girl. I believe with all the knowledge and wisdom God has given me I’ve always missed having a sister because I have one! Babies who die, no matter in what manner, shoot straight up to Heaven. God, my friends, had told me when I was extremely young not to be Catholic. Priests can get married, babies don’t go to Hell, and there is no such thing as purgatory. Only Jesus has purged the sins who accept Him as their only Lord and Savior: no one else — and nothing else! And we don’t pray to Mary! God didn’t send Cindy, a baby who died unborn, to Hell! How ludicrous to think that!

Selah!

Yes, my sibling died in our mother’s womb. Yes, it was not God’s fault. Yes our Father in Heaven had and has His perfect plan for Cindy. Unable to complete her plan on Earth, she is with Him now, waiting for me.

Remember, I fully believe Cindy is female not because I grew up with three older brothers, not because I’ve always, always wanted an older sister. Isn’t it interesting to you that not only did I feel this sorrowful void all my life – but the sister I wanted was older, not younger? It has nothing to do with the fact that this child would have been born into Earth before me…

I’ve thought about Cindy long and hard over my entire life and I love her. My conclusion and full belief are that this child who entered Heaven before leaving her / our mother’s womb is the sister I’ve always longed for. I believe with all my heart this emptiness, this very temporary loss will be replaced, and eternally replaced, with love, hugs, kisses, and everlasting conversations with Cindy, my sister!

NOTE: I’d like to address this fun statement I’ve made: “She would have loved me! I would have made her love me!”

Two points here:
You can’t make people love you. You can’t make people love God. Loving someone necessarily enough to help lead them to the Lord… Even the love of God lavished on someone doesn’t always move them to contrition.

Selah

Case in point: Judas Iscariot. Godly love has to be accepted by free will.

The more fun and exciting point for me is this: Cindy does love me! She is in Heaven and she is perfect. She and I will have no battles! We will never be jealous as some sisters are down here. She is my saintly sister, as I am hers and we will laugh, love, and live together some day forever and ever! Amen!

 

For more on babies in Heaven: if you haven’t read my first book, Joy Stories, Volume One, please do so and enjoy the story In Honor of Jesse! Jesse is my son who died unborn. He’s waiting for me too!

 

SCRIPTURES REGARDING THIS JOY STORY:

 

 

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

 

Philippians 4:19-20
And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus. To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

 

Mark 14:43-45
Rise! Let us go! Here comes my betrayer!”
Just as he was speaking, Judas, one of the Twelve, appeared. With him was a crowd armed with swords and clubs, sent from the chief priests, the teachers of the law, and the elders. Now the betrayer had arranged a signal with them: “The one I kiss is the man; arrest him and lead him away under guard.” Going at once to Jesus, Judas said, “Rabbi!”

and kissed him.

 

 

Romans 5:12-14
Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all people, because all sinned—To be sure, sin was in the world before the law was given, but sin is not charged against anyone’s account where there is no law. Nevertheless, death reigned from the time of Adam to the time of Moses, even over those who did not sin by breaking a command, as did Adam, who is a pattern of the one to come.