that I have loved her all my life. All my life that I can remember my mother’s child died inside of her. All my life I wanted a sister, an older sister. All my life I knew I was missing a very beautiful and loving sibling. I think of her often.

I have missed her as I grew up, wanting her to teach me about boys and makeup. Growing up with three brothers, knowing how different sisters are, I miss Cindy. Satan took her away from me!

Father,
I know that Cindy and I are only temporarily separated. You give us both peace that our love for each other will be lived out for eternity.

Please tell Cindy that I know she and I would have had a passionate sibling love; that she would have been my best girlfriend. I’ve always wanted her: wanted her to teach me many things, protect me, encourage me, laugh and cry with me; be my big sister whom I was always proud of, be my confidant and be the one that I would tell things I would never tell anyone else…

But she was not able…
Cindy has never been with me.

Please tell my sister I’ve missed her ever since I can remember. Even though I never met her, nor touched her, even though I have no idea if she looks like me or our brothers, our mom or our dad, I know she is beautiful. My soul has always ached for her, a void has always been there.

Father, I know I will see her! And Cindy will be thrilled with me! I know that more than likely you have already told Cindy my intense desire to meet her, how I have longed all my life for a sister and how I am crying now as I write this. Father, you know that I have always had a sorrowful void in my life for not yet knowing her. But I will know her and she knows me now.

Precious Lord,
as I write this, tears run down my face, this day – my birthday – as I miss her, long for her. Yet, I have absolute confidence Cindy will meet me at the gates of Heaven and we will laugh and cry and hug!

Precious Father,
Every time a woman speaks of not getting along with her sister I am angry. How dare family not love and cherish one another! How dare they not follow God’s oracles! And if they do, how dare they call themselves Christians!

Selah.

FATHER PLEASE TELL ANYONE
who has had a sister or daughter die unborn to the world that they have a right, a God-given right to live with them. Please tell them to wait patiently as I am. Please tell them to continue to fight the good fight, knowing their sister, brother, daughter or son, is waiting now patiently and expectantly for the love they cannot share until Heaven’s gate open for them. Please tell them their loved ones in Heaven will overflow with love and gratitude they are together.

Selah.

BIBLICAL TRUTHS:
Babies who die unborn are unable to discern the Gospel of Christ. They are welcomed, adored and protected in their Father’s arms. Any family member entering the gates of Heaven will see and live with their entire family who is in Christ. And babies are!

These children-people have never been lost. Because of the Fall of Adam the curse is in the Earth. You did not lose a child; she temporarily left you…
Join her!

2 Samuel 12:18-23
On the seventh day the child died. David’s attendants were afraid to tell him that the child was dead, for they thought, “While the child was still living, he wouldn’t listen to us when we spoke to him. How can we now tell him the child is dead? He may do something desperate.” David noticed that his attendants were whispering among themselves, and he realized the child was dead. “Is the child dead?” he asked. “Yes,” they replied, “he is dead.” Then David got up from the ground. After he had washed, put on lotions and changed his clothes, he went into the house of the Lord and worshiped. Then he went to his own house, and at his request they served him food, and he ate. His attendants asked him, “Why are you acting this way? While the child was alive, you fasted and wept, but now that the child is dead, you get up and eat!” He answered, “While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept. I thought, ‘Who knows? The Lord may be gracious to me and let the child live.’  But now that he is dead, why should I go on fasting? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me.”

NOTE: if you haven’t read my book Joy Stories you may like to know that I, too, had a child die unborn. A miscarriage – not a spontaneous abortion… I talk about my child in the short story, In Honor of Jesse. Like Cindy, Jesse is in Heaven waiting for me!

My prayer is that the biblical truths of a child’s death gives you comfort.
Remember, you didn’t lose a child. You now know where she is!

And because we are not talk to the dead…
every day I ask our Father, Cindy’s and mine and Jesse’s (and all else who love Him) to tell my sister and my son I love them and we are coming to be with them.
He does!